♥
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Today was emerge day 1. =) There were hiccups here and there but overall it was really inspiring and the new worship songs are truly awesome. right now, my mind is kinda going into shut down mode every 5 minutes so i can't relate much of what happened today. just that it's tiring. but great.
and i wore my happy dress. haha.
got to emcee strings tomorrow with kenji. kinda sad that i'm gonna miss emerge day 2. GRAH. oh well. can't back down at the last minute.
am tired. reason why i'm blogging in uncomplete. wait. incomplete sentences. ok goodbye.
♥
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
BIG HOUSE - AUDIO ADRENALINE
I don't know where you lay your head
or where you call your home
I don't know where you eat your meals
or where you talk on the phone
I don't know if you got a cook
a butler or a maid
I don't know if you got a yard
with a hammock in the shade
I don't know if you got some shelter
say a place to hide
I don't know if you live with friends
in whom you can confide
I don't know if you got a family
say a mom or dad
I don't know if you feel love at all
but I bet you wish you had
Come and go with me
to my Fathers house
Come and go with me
to my Fathers house
It's a big big house
with lots and lots a room
A big big table
with lots and lots of food
A big big yard
where we can play football
A big big house
Its my Fathers house
All I know is a big ole house
with rooms for everyone
All I know is lots a land
where we can play and run
All I know is you need love
and I've got a family
All I know is your all alone
so why not come with me?
Emerge is coming up! It's gonna be real exciting, so for those who are free on thursday/friday/saturday/sunday, COME FOR IT! =) cya there.
♥
Thursday, May 24, 2007
oh blooey. time sure flies past. today's the last day of school (technically it's tomorrow but it's an open secret that's it's gonna be a full day =) and yea...mid years gonna start soon.
hm. time to discipline myself into studying.
since blogging is rumoured to have a cathartic effect, i shall now attempt to purge my turbulent emotions here.
Emotions really are fickle things. you'll never miss the water til the well runs dry. wonder if i got that right. yea...somehow when you stop getting those calls you take so much for granted, there's a sense of loss. and it's strange how it was so easy to get over it, and then suddenly it boomerangs back 2 months later to hit you hard in the face. and THEN. suddenly. you miss those smiles in school, those silly shoulder taps in the morning, 12 midnight convos, even the fights. ridiculous, but when it's gone you only miss the good things. but then again. i think we're better off on the platonic level.
maybe it's the rachael yamagata tragic mood talking.bleargh.
well. i suppose it gets easier after awhile to shove you to the inner recesses of my mind and pray hard that you'll disappear and stop surfacing to bug me. some days it's easier than others. some days i congratulate myself for the relative success of not thinking about it. and others i just want to curl up in a corner and think with emo music. then again, i'll survive.
take care, i've been hurt before. too much time spent on closing doors.
it'll be just as quiet when i leave, as it was when i first got here. don't expect anything. don't expect anything.
i keep telling myself that. it's gonna work when my heart registers that.
what if i was someone different in your history?
nuts.
i have stuff to thank God for actually. seriously, apart from all that, i honestly think that i am succeeding in finally pulling myself out of that spiritual rut that i've been stuck in the longest time. it's feels good to be back on track. it feels good to know that i'm doing the right thing; i haven't felt so clear about my goals in a long time. and somehow i can feel it in my bones that God's going to do something soon. so everyone be prepared for great and awesome things to come your way! =)
it's funny how the most normal and seemingly inconsequential people in our lives turn out to be ones who inspire us the most. it sounds rather ironic and yes it is. i think God purposely and strategically place these people in my life to help me through everything. so kudos to rainft, liping and sin ae =) you guys are truly inspirational. rainft, you never fail to cheer me up through my bad times and to always lend that listening ear when i need one. you always challenge me when i feel like my passion for God is running dry. thanks! and liping, even though i know you for less than a year, i feel like i've known you for many years :) seriously, i haven't found someone i can click with so readily in a long time. you truly inspire me with your bravery and your honesty. thanks for always being there when i need you. it's a twin thing. haha =) and sin ae, though we dont' talk as much as i'd like to, but you always make me feel so much more peaceful during my stressful periods. thanks for being so considerate and loving towards me. im so glad God put you in A11 :) and YOU roy...thanks for keeping my dirty little secret. haha.
whoa. that was a VERY loooong post. ok. time to catch a movie. ciao!
PS: EMERGE COMING UP!
♥
Sunday, May 20, 2007
i'm back from the mcyc camp. what can i say about it?
well. first of all, i didn't think about how challenging it would be, or how rewarding it would turn out, or all the lessons that i would learnt that can't be picked up in school, and how many amazing people i would meet.
i have to say that the camp has made me a better person; to be more compassionate, to exercise as much patience as i can muster in tough circumstances, and to trust God through it all. And above all, God has taught me to say the right things and do the right things to touch the lives of those kids, and at the end of the camp, i was truly touched to look into some of their eyes and know that they have benefitted from all the encouragement and love that we have showered upon them.
Even though it's just been three short days, i already feel a deep sense of affection for each and everyone of them in my group. it's awfully hard to pen down what i feel for them, but in a nutshell, i can say that i have learnt to love them all, all of them have that special something in them that shines through, those it's harder to find that something in one or another. but i know it's there, and if they'll open their eyes wider and look carefully inside themselves, they'll know that they're so wonderfully unique, they don't have to live up to anybody else's standards. so. tiger(i still dont' know your real name!), talib (who is really adorable), ricky (super strong, haha), shengjie (talented!), mini (wonderfully outspoken haha), sugar (sweet :)), siva (budding actor), sabrina (girl with the wonderful soul, thank you for making this experience special for me.
yup. and the mcyc staff and all the other volunteers are amazing as well. there is so much i can learn from all of them. their patience and unwavering support for all these youth is truly commendable.
to elroy/eleanor/elly/sheebunensky: thanks for being your wonderful crazy self and loving the kids so much. you really made all my days with your quacky sense of humour. i'm glad we got paired up 'coz i got to know you better. =)lol, thanks for accompanying me in the scary girl's toilet.
kaye: hey! kinda sad we didn't get to talk much but anyways, just wanna let you know that i enjoyed this camp immensely and you were there to make it so much better.really happy to see you again! hope we can talk soon.
smellow/mel: hey you.i hope you had as much fun at camp as i did. =) i'll never forget that little contact lens incident we had in the toilet. haha soon you'll have as many anecdotes as i have.
bim: hello! i think you did a wonderful job with the powerpoint, and ben told me that you were really great with the kids as well. i'm glad that we have one more common experience to talk about 10 years down the road.
dessie the loch ness monster: hello! you know i thought you were really queer the first time i met you, but now i think you're a wonderful person, very funny, and i'll always remember your unglam banana picture and your deep, manly, sexy, gay voice.
ben: hey ben! i could see your patience and love for each and everyone of the kids. thanks for being there when i nearly got mowed over. haha...glad you were at the camp.=)u were an inspiration to the kids.
♥
Thursday, May 17, 2007
After that little quote about tripping over rainbows (Anna Maughan) i've decided to go on a quote spree.
We don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing. - Satchel Paige
Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong. - Ella Fitzgerald, American singer (b. 1918)
If you could kick the person responsible for most of your troubles, you would not be able to sit down for six months. - Unknown (HAHA)
GOD LIVES BEHIND A HUGE MOUNTAIN CALLED ' I '
Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. - Jesus of Nazareth
"The difference between insanity and genius is success." - Jonathan Price, Tomorrow Never Dies
nuts. tired and bored. shall finish packing for mcyc then it's off to the hundred acres woods for a mooch before bed.
♥
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Hm. I went to the physiotherapist today to have my back checked. apparently, sleeping for too long in that position in the library caused my bone to be slightly dislocated (there's this technical term for it which i can't remember). Anyways, apparently, the creaking of my hip bone is due to the way i walk, which according to the guy, is because i don't use enough muscle, and then he started STRUTTING in front of me and all i could think was, 'Do i really walk like that?!' haha. oh well. at least my back is back to normal. yay. i'm able to run and jump around again. no more plodding along at a snail's pace. hooray.
When I see you
My heart starts smiling
I'm tripping over rainbows. =)
what a nice quote.
♥
Sunday, May 13, 2007
It's a choice
to stay
It's a dream
& I wanna wake
You have blood on your hands
and I'm feeling faint
And honey
You can't decide
I'm a drug
Ya don't wanna give up
Smoke your cigarettes
Make your love
You poured blood in my heart
and I can't get enough
I'm drowning, drowning
and you can't decide
It's not about geography, or happenstance
you need to fly, & take a chance
You don't need to soar to emptiness
Float on high, & forever dance alone
Your scared, scared, scared
cuz I feel like home
Hear your voice
Knew right away
If you were here
your eyes would say
There is blood on my feet
as I'm walking away
Rivers are red
Its starting to rain
I'm not gonna live for you
or die for you
Won't do anything anymore for you
Cuz you leave me here on the other side
You leave me here on the other side
Not gonna shed one more tear for you
shed one more tear for you
I'm not gonna shed one more tear for you
At least not til Sunday Afternoon
Sunday Afternoon
Leave or Stay
Leave or Stay
-Rachael Yamagata
♥
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Hey! I decided to post after having read my Message bible this morning. Haha, this version really gives me an incentive to read the bible, with the contemporary translation. It's amusing to read some of the expressions. :)
The Story of Daniel fighting Goliath
- As the Philistine paced back and forth, his shield bearer in front of him, he noticed David. He took one look down on him and sneered - a mere youngster, apple-cheeked and peach-fuzzed. - 1 Samuel 17:41-42 (i totally cracked up with the last line.)
God's for Us
- So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? - Romans 8
Genesis, Heaven and Earth
- First this: God created the Heavens and Earth - all you see, all you don't see. Earth was a soup of nothingness, a bottomless emptiness, an inky blackness. God's Spirit brooded like a bird above the watery abyss. - Genesis 1:1-2
♥
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Haha. time to revive my dead blog. :)
well basically in case you've been wondering why i haven't been posting, it's because my internet always goes wonky on me after awhile. ernest very unceremoniously told me yesterday that my internet sucks. yea. like i need you to tell me that.
anyways. hm. things are pretty good now. except for my back. you know i never thought i'd be saying this EVER but i actually kinda miss running and jumping around. yes i have discovered the joys of running. never again will i stare at manda disdainfully when she puts on those proverbial running shoes to tromp around downstairs on the track. grah. the only exercise i get nowadays is trundling around (more like hobbling actually) with bagel downstairs, with the occasional dash (with my back protesting) when he runs off to say hi to one of his friends.
sleeping in the library and running after that is a deadly combination.
things are going to get exciting this may. haha. going for the MCYC camp with mel, bim, elly and his friend, desmond, and ben song and KAYE. ^.^ yay. i think it'll be a more fulfilling activity, aside from the monotonous stuff. (blearily trudging to school, lessons and more, mooching home exhausted, more work, bed calls.) yup, plus i'm really glad for this opportunity to catch up with kaye and get to know the others better.
oh yes. not to mention manda's pageant activities. it's all been pretty interesting, living with someone in a beauty contest. lots of makeup and fretting over clothes and shoes involved. and the geek. haha. oh well. that's another story for another day. all right. bed calls.
♥
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Today was emerge day 1. =) There were hiccups here and there but overall it was really inspiring and the new worship songs are truly awesome. right now, my mind is kinda going into shut down mode every 5 minutes so i can't relate much of what happened today. just that it's tiring. but great.
and i wore my happy dress. haha.
got to emcee strings tomorrow with kenji. kinda sad that i'm gonna miss emerge day 2. GRAH. oh well. can't back down at the last minute.
am tired. reason why i'm blogging in uncomplete. wait. incomplete sentences. ok goodbye.
♥
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
BIG HOUSE - AUDIO ADRENALINE
I don't know where you lay your head
or where you call your home
I don't know where you eat your meals
or where you talk on the phone
I don't know if you got a cook
a butler or a maid
I don't know if you got a yard
with a hammock in the shade
I don't know if you got some shelter
say a place to hide
I don't know if you live with friends
in whom you can confide
I don't know if you got a family
say a mom or dad
I don't know if you feel love at all
but I bet you wish you had
Come and go with me
to my Fathers house
Come and go with me
to my Fathers house
It's a big big house
with lots and lots a room
A big big table
with lots and lots of food
A big big yard
where we can play football
A big big house
Its my Fathers house
All I know is a big ole house
with rooms for everyone
All I know is lots a land
where we can play and run
All I know is you need love
and I've got a family
All I know is your all alone
so why not come with me?
Emerge is coming up! It's gonna be real exciting, so for those who are free on thursday/friday/saturday/sunday, COME FOR IT! =) cya there.
♥
Thursday, May 24, 2007
oh blooey. time sure flies past. today's the last day of school (technically it's tomorrow but it's an open secret that's it's gonna be a full day =) and yea...mid years gonna start soon.
hm. time to discipline myself into studying.
since blogging is rumoured to have a cathartic effect, i shall now attempt to purge my turbulent emotions here.
Emotions really are fickle things. you'll never miss the water til the well runs dry. wonder if i got that right. yea...somehow when you stop getting those calls you take so much for granted, there's a sense of loss. and it's strange how it was so easy to get over it, and then suddenly it boomerangs back 2 months later to hit you hard in the face. and THEN. suddenly. you miss those smiles in school, those silly shoulder taps in the morning, 12 midnight convos, even the fights. ridiculous, but when it's gone you only miss the good things. but then again. i think we're better off on the platonic level.
maybe it's the rachael yamagata tragic mood talking.bleargh.
well. i suppose it gets easier after awhile to shove you to the inner recesses of my mind and pray hard that you'll disappear and stop surfacing to bug me. some days it's easier than others. some days i congratulate myself for the relative success of not thinking about it. and others i just want to curl up in a corner and think with emo music. then again, i'll survive.
take care, i've been hurt before. too much time spent on closing doors.
it'll be just as quiet when i leave, as it was when i first got here. don't expect anything. don't expect anything.
i keep telling myself that. it's gonna work when my heart registers that.
what if i was someone different in your history?
nuts.
i have stuff to thank God for actually. seriously, apart from all that, i honestly think that i am succeeding in finally pulling myself out of that spiritual rut that i've been stuck in the longest time. it's feels good to be back on track. it feels good to know that i'm doing the right thing; i haven't felt so clear about my goals in a long time. and somehow i can feel it in my bones that God's going to do something soon. so everyone be prepared for great and awesome things to come your way! =)
it's funny how the most normal and seemingly inconsequential people in our lives turn out to be ones who inspire us the most. it sounds rather ironic and yes it is. i think God purposely and strategically place these people in my life to help me through everything. so kudos to rainft, liping and sin ae =) you guys are truly inspirational. rainft, you never fail to cheer me up through my bad times and to always lend that listening ear when i need one. you always challenge me when i feel like my passion for God is running dry. thanks! and liping, even though i know you for less than a year, i feel like i've known you for many years :) seriously, i haven't found someone i can click with so readily in a long time. you truly inspire me with your bravery and your honesty. thanks for always being there when i need you. it's a twin thing. haha =) and sin ae, though we dont' talk as much as i'd like to, but you always make me feel so much more peaceful during my stressful periods. thanks for being so considerate and loving towards me. im so glad God put you in A11 :) and YOU roy...thanks for keeping my dirty little secret. haha.
whoa. that was a VERY loooong post. ok. time to catch a movie. ciao!
PS: EMERGE COMING UP!
♥
Sunday, May 20, 2007
i'm back from the mcyc camp. what can i say about it?
well. first of all, i didn't think about how challenging it would be, or how rewarding it would turn out, or all the lessons that i would learnt that can't be picked up in school, and how many amazing people i would meet.
i have to say that the camp has made me a better person; to be more compassionate, to exercise as much patience as i can muster in tough circumstances, and to trust God through it all. And above all, God has taught me to say the right things and do the right things to touch the lives of those kids, and at the end of the camp, i was truly touched to look into some of their eyes and know that they have benefitted from all the encouragement and love that we have showered upon them.
Even though it's just been three short days, i already feel a deep sense of affection for each and everyone of them in my group. it's awfully hard to pen down what i feel for them, but in a nutshell, i can say that i have learnt to love them all, all of them have that special something in them that shines through, those it's harder to find that something in one or another. but i know it's there, and if they'll open their eyes wider and look carefully inside themselves, they'll know that they're so wonderfully unique, they don't have to live up to anybody else's standards. so. tiger(i still dont' know your real name!), talib (who is really adorable), ricky (super strong, haha), shengjie (talented!), mini (wonderfully outspoken haha), sugar (sweet :)), siva (budding actor), sabrina (girl with the wonderful soul, thank you for making this experience special for me.
yup. and the mcyc staff and all the other volunteers are amazing as well. there is so much i can learn from all of them. their patience and unwavering support for all these youth is truly commendable.
to elroy/eleanor/elly/sheebunensky: thanks for being your wonderful crazy self and loving the kids so much. you really made all my days with your quacky sense of humour. i'm glad we got paired up 'coz i got to know you better. =)lol, thanks for accompanying me in the scary girl's toilet.
kaye: hey! kinda sad we didn't get to talk much but anyways, just wanna let you know that i enjoyed this camp immensely and you were there to make it so much better.really happy to see you again! hope we can talk soon.
smellow/mel: hey you.i hope you had as much fun at camp as i did. =) i'll never forget that little contact lens incident we had in the toilet. haha soon you'll have as many anecdotes as i have.
bim: hello! i think you did a wonderful job with the powerpoint, and ben told me that you were really great with the kids as well. i'm glad that we have one more common experience to talk about 10 years down the road.
dessie the loch ness monster: hello! you know i thought you were really queer the first time i met you, but now i think you're a wonderful person, very funny, and i'll always remember your unglam banana picture and your deep, manly, sexy, gay voice.
ben: hey ben! i could see your patience and love for each and everyone of the kids. thanks for being there when i nearly got mowed over. haha...glad you were at the camp.=)u were an inspiration to the kids.
♥
Thursday, May 17, 2007
After that little quote about tripping over rainbows (Anna Maughan) i've decided to go on a quote spree.
We don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing. - Satchel Paige
Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong. - Ella Fitzgerald, American singer (b. 1918)
If you could kick the person responsible for most of your troubles, you would not be able to sit down for six months. - Unknown (HAHA)
GOD LIVES BEHIND A HUGE MOUNTAIN CALLED ' I '
Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. - Jesus of Nazareth
"The difference between insanity and genius is success." - Jonathan Price, Tomorrow Never Dies
nuts. tired and bored. shall finish packing for mcyc then it's off to the hundred acres woods for a mooch before bed.
♥
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Hm. I went to the physiotherapist today to have my back checked. apparently, sleeping for too long in that position in the library caused my bone to be slightly dislocated (there's this technical term for it which i can't remember). Anyways, apparently, the creaking of my hip bone is due to the way i walk, which according to the guy, is because i don't use enough muscle, and then he started STRUTTING in front of me and all i could think was, 'Do i really walk like that?!' haha. oh well. at least my back is back to normal. yay. i'm able to run and jump around again. no more plodding along at a snail's pace. hooray.
When I see you
My heart starts smiling
I'm tripping over rainbows. =)
what a nice quote.
♥
Sunday, May 13, 2007
It's a choice
to stay
It's a dream
& I wanna wake
You have blood on your hands
and I'm feeling faint
And honey
You can't decide
I'm a drug
Ya don't wanna give up
Smoke your cigarettes
Make your love
You poured blood in my heart
and I can't get enough
I'm drowning, drowning
and you can't decide
It's not about geography, or happenstance
you need to fly, & take a chance
You don't need to soar to emptiness
Float on high, & forever dance alone
Your scared, scared, scared
cuz I feel like home
Hear your voice
Knew right away
If you were here
your eyes would say
There is blood on my feet
as I'm walking away
Rivers are red
Its starting to rain
I'm not gonna live for you
or die for you
Won't do anything anymore for you
Cuz you leave me here on the other side
You leave me here on the other side
Not gonna shed one more tear for you
shed one more tear for you
I'm not gonna shed one more tear for you
At least not til Sunday Afternoon
Sunday Afternoon
Leave or Stay
Leave or Stay
-Rachael Yamagata
♥
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Hey! I decided to post after having read my Message bible this morning. Haha, this version really gives me an incentive to read the bible, with the contemporary translation. It's amusing to read some of the expressions. :)
The Story of Daniel fighting Goliath
- As the Philistine paced back and forth, his shield bearer in front of him, he noticed David. He took one look down on him and sneered - a mere youngster, apple-cheeked and peach-fuzzed. - 1 Samuel 17:41-42 (i totally cracked up with the last line.)
God's for Us
- So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? - Romans 8
Genesis, Heaven and Earth
- First this: God created the Heavens and Earth - all you see, all you don't see. Earth was a soup of nothingness, a bottomless emptiness, an inky blackness. God's Spirit brooded like a bird above the watery abyss. - Genesis 1:1-2
♥
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Haha. time to revive my dead blog. :)
well basically in case you've been wondering why i haven't been posting, it's because my internet always goes wonky on me after awhile. ernest very unceremoniously told me yesterday that my internet sucks. yea. like i need you to tell me that.
anyways. hm. things are pretty good now. except for my back. you know i never thought i'd be saying this EVER but i actually kinda miss running and jumping around. yes i have discovered the joys of running. never again will i stare at manda disdainfully when she puts on those proverbial running shoes to tromp around downstairs on the track. grah. the only exercise i get nowadays is trundling around (more like hobbling actually) with bagel downstairs, with the occasional dash (with my back protesting) when he runs off to say hi to one of his friends.
sleeping in the library and running after that is a deadly combination.
things are going to get exciting this may. haha. going for the MCYC camp with mel, bim, elly and his friend, desmond, and ben song and KAYE. ^.^ yay. i think it'll be a more fulfilling activity, aside from the monotonous stuff. (blearily trudging to school, lessons and more, mooching home exhausted, more work, bed calls.) yup, plus i'm really glad for this opportunity to catch up with kaye and get to know the others better.
oh yes. not to mention manda's pageant activities. it's all been pretty interesting, living with someone in a beauty contest. lots of makeup and fretting over clothes and shoes involved. and the geek. haha. oh well. that's another story for another day. all right. bed calls.
